Somebody to love....?

i was 16 when i had my first love. he wasn't my first bf, he was actually the second one. We knew each other since we were in 3rd grade and we've been good friends since then. we always joke around each other. we even hurt each other for fun (part of some jokes). when we were about to graduate from high school, we both went to a party together with some other friends. we were playing spin the bottle, his first kiss that night was with a guy and my first kiss that night was with a girl. lol. then i had to kiss him. (i already had a crush on him, since we were in 3rd grade and i just hid it from him so we won't back away or anything). Our kiss lasted for about 5 to 10 sec. not really sure, but i know it was long. after that he gave me a ride home, but we never talked. we barely spoke for a week, then he came over to my house, we watched a movie, but again we never talked but when he was about to leave he asked me if i wanted to go out with him and i said yes. we dated for almost 2 years. we just broke up a month ago. college got in the way. we were both just too busy that we grew apart. we suddenly became cold. we fought all the time and it was just too much work for both of us. i'm still trying to get over him. :) still remember everything about him. i still love him actually. i miss him everyday. actually i miss us. he just changed and i think he forgot how to take care of me, i still feel that he let us grew apart. but, i know i'll find someone better than him. someday, i'll find somebody to love. and i know you would too. you just have to wait. :)